I am writing this on the eve of Thanksgiving, and what has been one of the hardest days in my life as a mama; but just as minutes ago I have tucked in my boys, I am so very grateful for everything I have. For new experiences, feelings, and dreams going in...and going out of my life.
I realize it is not okay to live in a fantasy world of everything being lovely around me. I know I have to embrace and deal with challenges that seem to grow larger daily. I have to, because loving means it is going to be hard sometimes, and I have to love that too. I realize that I do not know why I am being presented with challenges, but I have to accept that it is all part of the Great Spirit's plan. I simply have to trust and love, and I am thankful for this to have finally sunk in. This giving in comes with benefits though; it means a weight has lifted off from inside me (as I hand it over to the One I trust in), it means new friendships, new plans, new dreams, and loving my family for everything that they are and ever will be. I hope that you, my family and friends are thankful for everything that you have as well.